when the sun turns blue and the ocean turns yellow

2012-01-15T21:22:00.002+07:00

that feeling when you feel bored by how your relationship with him/her and you feel you love him/her more at the same time. when you want to stay away just for a day but you miss him/her at the same time. just confusing.

2012. It's just feel the same for this month. like, I feel like such a temperamental person everyday. I had no idea why. lack of sleep, school's getting crazy, and the examination is getting closer without you even notice. college's ahead. what could be more confusing than this?

I currently have no best friend. I mean literally. almost everyone do this 'mean' thing to me. I can't even help myself not to feel depressed every time I go to school. I need help. literally.

life's perfect, eh?

I can't thank God enough

2012-01-04T17:44:00.001+07:00

This thing shocked me. I can't even believe it. Finally I got the Tuition Grant!

it is finally paid off

2011-12-12T16:48:00.000+07:00

and here it is.

I really can't describe how I feel about this. After a fine-yet-feel-very-nervous interview, I finally get this yellow paper.

So, I am officially the LASALLE Diploma student majoring in Design Communication :-)
But I am still waiting for the Tuition Grant, so wish me luck :-)

long abandoned

2011-12-07T15:24:00.001+07:00

as what the title says, yes, sorry blog for abandoned you for a long time.

I have my own reason actually. First, I was busy with the exams. November and December are my most hectic months. I also still preparing for my college. This Sunday I'm going to have an interview. I need to submit portfolio but until now, I only did 3. Yes, we'll see about that later.

So this is me, making my drawing (such a narcissism)

And here is the (unfinished) drawing

I hope for the best. How about you these days? I wish you have a good day today!

quick update

2011-10-25T23:38:00.000+07:00

woah, it's been such a long time since the last post. am currently preparing for my college and it takes a lot of my time. just a quick update.

Ankatama and Leo by ~foolordinary on deviantART

THE S.I.G.I.T by ~foolordinary on deviantART

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++Cassandra++ by ~foolordinary on deviantART

The Lost Polar Bear by ~foolordinary on deviantART

++C-H-M++2 by ~foolordinary on deviantART

++JessicaCarolina++ by ~foolordinary on deviantART

FORTALS (GPS Pensi) was a huge success! // I joined LASALLE's Summer Creative Workshop and it was awesome! // I did some photoshoots // I made my own web on Cargo // I'm going to try my luck at LASALLE College of Art, Singapore

2011-06-30T21:22:00.002+07:00

pernahkah engkau merasa sendiri ditengah keramaian?

hanya ada engkau dan semua suara yang menggamang

suara tv yang berceloteh

musik yang nadanya sudah tak beraturan lagi

anak-anak yang berteriak seakan-akan sedang di hutan

tetapi itu semua tidak terdengar jelas di kupingmu

seperti gumaman yang tidak jelas datang dari mana

semua menjadi satu

pernahkah engkau merasa bosan di tengah keramaian?

di tengah semua tawa dan senyum sumingrah itu

suara anak-anak berlari dan bercanda

suara yang dihasilkan oleh benda-benda mati itu

pernahkah engkau merasa sangat tenang

tidak ada suara satupun

bahkan engkau bisa mendengar jarum yang jatuh

tidak ada musik favoritmu

tidak ada acara favoritmu

jauh dari semua kepalsuan dunia maya

bahkan burung pun tidak berkicau

engkau hanya terbaring, menatap langit-langit

kosong, entah kemana

tidak ada yang engkau pikirkan

hanya engkau dan kesunyian

pernahkan engkau melihat jarum jam yang bergerak lambat?

sekan-akan semua ini bagaikan slow motion

engkau bisa merasakan angin yang lewat

bisa merasakan panasnya udara saat itu

semua terasa begitu lama

namun ternyata itu semua kurang dari 5 menit

what I'm currently doing

2011-05-03T22:00:00.002+07:00

drew a picture tonight. bad enough, I know. but it's one of my way to entertain myself. I've been busy with school stuff, especially the preparation for Biology Olympiad.

my messy bed

this is what I just drew

I made a heart-shaped origami for him :-)

this. is. kinda. sucks.

When We Awake, All Dreams Are Gone

2011-03-30T17:00:00.003+07:00

"What you're going to hear now, is a story about dreaming."

When We Awake, All Dreams Are Gone. that is the title of L'Alphalpha 's newest album. it has just arrived from Hey Folks! and all I did is cheering like...FINALLY! been in love with their music and craving to hear more on their album. the songs are relaxing, suitable for your lullaby, or when you're completely alone.

Track List:

Flashback
Peace, Completeness, and Welfare (Silence)
Clouds Are Gone Now I Can See The Sky, Clearly
The Day When Everything Around Us Fall Asleep and We Do Remember How To Awake
Comet's Tail
About A Friend
Park
(Reprise)

and this is a video of their performance :) enjoy!

L'alphalpha @ Superbad! from Dimas Wisnuwardono on Vimeo.

current book: Sense and Sensibility

2011-03-29T19:52:00.003+07:00

I borrowed this book from school's library. it's English, published by Oxford University, UK and written by Jane Austen. started to like this book from the first sight! I saw the cover, and it's like so artsy and classic! here's the description:

"Sometimes the Dashwood girls do not seem like sisters. Elinor is all calmness and reason, and can be relied upon for practical, common sense opinions. Marianne, on the other hand, is all sensibility, full of passionate and romantic feeling. Seha has no time fot dull common sense - or for middle-aged men of thirty-five, long past the age of marriage.

True love can only be felt by the young, of course. And if you heart is broken at the age of seventeen, how can yoi ever expect to recover from the passionate misery that fills your life, waking and sleeping?"

ahoy!

2011-03-28T22:22:00.003+07:00

hello. it's been a while. will do a lil' quick update here :)

I got myself a new haircut. it's shorter! I've never cut my hair short anymore since elementary :)
gotta learn more about video editing and animation. craving to do some projects here
not to think about the future for a while. It's been so confusing. ah so whatever
it's been 13 months....and I love him more and more~
gotta make a short story, perhaps. in the mood for writing for so long....
will have my own tees, soon! also I design for my family & my parent's couple tees :)

short update complete! and oh btw, please, you're not a kid anymore, do you? talk to me nicely, and stop talking to your mates cuz it's not gonna solve anything.

malem-malem minta ma'em

2011-03-02T23:16:00.002+07:00

malam terasa begitu sepi. dikala semua sedang tertidur, aku malah terjaga.

karena aku ingin menghitung bintang

karena aku ingin melihat bulan

karena perut ini baru saja mengadakan demonstrasi

karena otak ini berkata "tidak" untuk tidur

karena aku kangen kamu....

surat

2011-02-28T19:43:00.000+07:00

ketika kita ingin mengatakan sesuatu namun terlalu malu, atau bahkan terlalu sedih mengatakannya, berikan saja mereka sepucuk surat.

Mom & Dad. And Brother

"thank you for the kindness y'all have given to me. tapi, akankah kalian mengerti bahwa mimpi yg saya punya bukanlah hal yang bisa disepelekan? mengapa kita harus membayar mahal sesuatu hal yang ternyata tidak bisa membuat saya sukses ketibang mendukung hal yang tidak lazim ini dan menjadikannya sesuatu yang besar dan berharga? akankah tes-tes tersebut menjanjikan? bukankah hanya Tuhan yang tahu isi hati kita yang terdalam? apakah kalian malu, karena mimpi saya bukanlah suatu hal yang terpandang di kalangan masyarakat pada umumnya? kalian memang orang tua yang tau segalanya tentang anak, tapi setidaknya saya tau saya mau menjadi apa dan bagaimana saya menjalaninya."

Friends, the six of us

"terima kasih untuk menerima saya apa adanya. terima kasih karna mau mengerti saya lebih daripada mereka yang membenci saya. terima kasih karna sudah memberikan arti sahabat selama ini. terima kasih :)"

You, my lover

"hai kamu, apa kabar? baik kan? lagi apa toh? aku kangen sama kamu. kangen banget. pengen peluk yang lama :) tapi hari ini kamu belum ada kabar apa-apa. padahal, aku lagi pengen ngobrol banget sama kamu.

terima kasih ya buat 13 bulan ini. dan pastinya akan terus bertambah kan? :) karena kamu, aku jadi belajar untuk mengerti orang lain dan menurunkan egoku sendiri. belajar menjaga sesuatu yag berharga. ya, kamu dan hatimu :)

tapi tetap saja aku ngerasa aku ga pantes aja buat kamu. abis, aku sering marahin kamu :( tapi, nantinya, pasti kamu nemu orang yang ga bakal marah-marah sama kamu, yang bisa ketawa setiap kamu bercanda, yang manja terus sama kamu, dan lain-lain. Tuhan memberkati ya, I love you, always."

yah, setidaknya mungkin itu surat terakhir sebelum saya........tidur. dengan tenang tentunya. :)

TRIA//REYNATTE

2011-02-13T21:56:00.001+07:00

just did a photo shoot yesterday :)

OGGEY OGGEY OGGEY!

2011-01-30T21:49:00.002+07:00

I'm starting to feel creative again now! Finally, I joined the photoshop short course, held by FMDS. The 1st meeting was so boring, it's just 3 of us and none of us were talking each other. Awkward silence, and I hate that. But never mind. Just let it be...

I'm in love with Skins since....hm....last month? I know it's just too late to fall in love with it but actually I fell in love with Luke Pasqualino far before I watched Skins. Ah...make sense?

Ah okay, these are my works. Old stocks. Gotta make some photo shoots soon. Cheers!

Oh by the way, found a nice quote on Skins

Cassie: Do you know what hurts most about a broken heart? Not being able to remember how you felt before... try and keep that feeling, because... if it goes... you'll never get it back
Chris: What happens then?
Cassie: You lay waste to the world... and everything in it.

10.11.2011

2011-01-10T19:21:00.001+07:00

I love you more :-)

just please,

2010-12-23T18:38:00.001+07:00

no more fights, ok? I'll behave myself....I will... :(

I love you :(

The Best Moments In Life

2010-12-08T14:21:00.004+07:00

(according to my own opinion)

sitting near the window with a city view on a cold, freezing day while drinking a cup of hot chocolate
walking on a beach with someone you love and watching sunset with him
laying on the grass and counting stars plus giving them names with him
when you have nothing to that day and what you do is just cuddling with him at home -- from morning 'till night
going out with best friends and having a lot of fun!
resting at his chest (aw that would be so sweet)
knowing what you wanted to do for the rest of your life
getting a good afford of something you've been always wanting to do
knowing that this guy of yours will be your guy forever
spending holiday with best friends -- at least for a week

Holiday!

2010-12-07T17:17:00.003+07:00

Yeay! Another Christmas and NY's Eve holiday. Oh God I've been waiting for this!

I did a photo-session today, with me boy, his friend named Ian, and Tria, my friend-and-model-of-every-photo-session-I-made. We chose Kemang Pratama, and it was fun! (tho the rain stopped us and because of that we went home earlier :| more photos at me Facebook :D)

But I need my Photoshop like.......now. Ah God I really, really want to make something with Photoshop :|

I'm on my way

2010-11-25T23:11:00.002+07:00

have you ever feel so childish?

have you ever realize that you're not mature enough to face the reality?

I'm on my way to be more mature,

and I need you to help me.

me (future) homey

2010-10-28T21:18:00.003+07:00

I am madly in love with home deco, like those lovely interiors................ *dying*

So, I bought 2 books about interior things which all of them are so breathtaking! Got the cheap price, thanks to Singapore bookstore.

Inspired with those books, sometimes I imagine about my future home. For my very first home (after I marry), I choose a not-to-big house, which is quite big for two persons, me and my future husband. I'll also prepare one room for our first child :)

I'll use wallpaper for my living room and bedroom. Something about flowers. Flowers are amazing and always blend to any mood. My kitchen will be dominated by white color for properties. Wall will be painted red. Dark red. Or maybe maroon? For bathroom, I'll use baby blue and navy blue. Love its gradation!

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Actually I want to take Interior Design as my major in college. But still, parents win. They (believed they) know everything, know where's my passion, my talent. Everything. I have a huge interest in Art. Not drawing, but film making. I love to make some concepts for scenes, if you ask me. My dreams were always like short movies, complete with those professional scenes. And yes, watching movies is a must for me. And one more thing, I'm not really good at math. Darn it.

2010-10-24T22:44:00.001+07:00

I miss your hug. I miss your kiss. right. about. now.

Cuz all of 'em are like daily foods for me.

October

2010-10-24T14:01:00.004+07:00

I just got back from the live-in program yesterday. It was another curriculum program from school, like living in a village for a week and just let your life flows like the people at that village. Went to Borobudur and Malioboro at the last day (yes I went to Jogja). Didn't capture any good photos (I mean landscape photos) but still, memories need to be capture, and that means friends.

Girls dream their own princes. I mean, their ideal men. Like a man who will wake her up every morning and say "Good morning, I love you". Hah sounds so perfect, eh?

I have mine too. Like a short scene at movies when he say "I know you're not ok" and many other simple yet romantic things that many man characters do on movies. Like hello, I'm a normal girl.

Just another random thought by the way. I'm not saying my bf is totally a cold person that doesn't do any sweet things to his girl. I'm just saying that, it's okay to dream your man, but you need to go back to the reality, people. And I'm not saying that you can't be like one of those happily-ever-after princess like any fairy tales have.

He's not the ideal man I've been dreamt of. But he's the one I've been needed for. Notice the difference? ;)

2010-10-06T20:36:00.002+07:00

my grandpa, having the rest of his new life up there, while his body is lying beside his love.

it was September 29th, 2010.

he's having a new life with his love.

up there.

or we know it as heaven.

First iMovie Project :D

2010-09-05T22:56:00.002+07:00

How To Escape From A Boredom from Claudia Efata on Vimeo.

the ending wasn't so good. it's hard to make a good timing, esp with the song. recorded from my digital camera

song : Dancing With Myself - Glee Cast

current list

2010-08-26T16:31:00.002+07:00

It's almost September anyway. I have a current list of my own, or more like a wishlist.

Have a photoshoot. ASAP
More and more saving
And the number 2 is for a fujifilm instax
Learn to bake, cook, and sew
Take an English courses. TBI maybe?

See, that's a wishlist, yes? However, I miss my lens. The "Canon people" is trying to fix it while me, stuck in this kinda 'that is cool! *taking the camera* SHOOT!' feeling :'(

22/08

2010-08-21T23:20:00.005+07:00

Hello there Imanuel, Mr.Teddy and I would like to say,

"Happy 19th Birthday!"

Have a wonderful day today,

Wish you all the best,

God will always give the best for you

p.s : Enjoy my present, be a good photographer, kay?

Turned 16th on August 14, 2010 :D

2010-08-15T18:00:00.004+07:00

and got a kinda surprise from my boy and some besties :D

otak dari semua ini : Imanuel & Casey. Love you both <3

nah ini tolol bgt. kan ada suara ketawa ketiwi sama shutter kamera. gue bangun, mereka ngumpet. gue kira suara TV, taunya........... :|

pemukulan masal. paling parah ya Casey :|

but thanks for the surprise anyway, love you all :D

p.s : got this adorable teddy from Imanuel :D

contrast, isn't it? (black over there, white over here) :P

2010-08-02T22:32:00.005+07:00

hving a night video call with Imanuel. Well, he made many screen shoots, and so did I. but still, I love making video calls with him :-)

Love letter, from me to you :-)

2010-07-10T01:06:00.001+07:00

Hello, it's been a long time since you've been mine and today is our anniversary. I think it's good to have a lil' flashback. Read it, and enjoy the flashback :-)

Remember how we met? I never thought that you're gonna be someone for me. What I see was a long yet beautiful friendship, and never knew that it will be so complicated, yet amazing. I was wondering how God let us to know each other. Yes, that's the only question that I've never known the answer. Cliché, eh? The way you called my name that day was so beautiful, though. And I never knew why (not until that day)

Many things have passed. Yes we were a best friend that day. Remember when one day I cried and called you around 3 A.M? Did you ask yourself like 'why me'? Wanna know why? Simple : I trusted you. I would not ever let someone see me cry, unless I trust them. And yes, I trusted you, until today.

I was like a lil' girl who fell too deep in love. No, that's not the right word. I never like you since today, just like what I said to you. I feel like...I'm losing you every time you didn't text me, chat me, or even call me. Will you feel the same way like I do? Will I be the other girl who fall in love with her boy too deep while the boy doesn't love 'em back? Guess nothing special between us, huh? Like what Mocca said,

"I wake up in the morning

Feeling emptiness in my heart

This pain is just too real

I dream about you, with someone else

Please say that you love me

That we’ll never be apart" - The Best Thing

So this feeling is making me crazy. I just can't stop text you. I need to hear your voice, so I decided to call you exactly at 12 A.M on August 22, 2009. Unfortunately, you didn't pick it up. I decided to post it on my blog and you said 'thank you' (which is so unbelievable). I was the luckiest girl ever. You made me smile with your comment, dear :-)

The things went so flat then, yet the feeling came bigger and bigger. I dreamed like what every girls are dreaming. I tried to keep contact with you. Why? Simple : I love you and I do not want to lose you.

Well, I remembered the thing that really hurt me once. I need to tell you how deep is my love, because Endah N' Resha told me so,

"When you love someone

Just be brave to say that you want him to be with you

When you hold your love

Don't ever let it go

Or you will lose your chance

To make your dreams come true" - When You Love Someone

So when you asked me to whom were all of my personal messages on MSN for, I really, REALLY wanted to say "it's you my dear. Yes, I love you". But I'm a coward, for your info, so I told you to ask my friend because she knew who was he. The answer was not good, though. You didn't have the same feeling like mine. I wouldn't cry, dear. We could be best forever, right? The pain was too....deep. That's why I couldn't cry that night. But let me move on. I'm moving on.....I hope so :'-)

Two days passed since you made that statement. We were eating and doing a lil' chit chat. Ah, it would be so wonderful when we were talking as a lover, not a best one :'-D

Not until that day. The day that changed everything. We were chatting like what we always do, and you said you're gonna call me at 10 P.M. It was Sunday, January 10, 2010. I was wondering what's going on because seems like it was so serious. I didn't expect too much. I read your tweet before. You said that you wanted to say your love to a girl before it's too late. Hello, how about me?

10 P.M. The phone rang. What should I do? Okay calm down.....

Another chit chat.

10.05 P.M. You said the word that I've never expected.

'Do you want to be my girl?'

'AM I DREAMING?!' I said to myself. 'Ha ha so funny, stop joking!' I said. 'No, I'm serious' you replied. Gosh.......wow......did-he-just-ask-me-to-be-his-girl-? No way, he's joking!

10:10 P.M. You asked me for the third times (or fourth? Nah I didn't count it) and said 'please answer it, it's 10:10! A perfect date, right? 10-01-10 ; 10.10 P.M'

And I said, 'Yes' :-)

So we were a couple since then. Nothing to say more, but yeah, once again, I feel so lucky to have you as mine.

I love you. So much. No, I mean too much. Happy six months anniversary :-)

the replacement

2009-06-02T17:14:00.005+07:00

yesterday I just realized that I replaced my gadgets with the new one, almost all

here they are :

*Nokia 6220 Classic - BlackBerry Bold*

*Gameboy - Nintendo DS*

*Casio Digicam - Canon 1000D*

and this is a new member of my gadget fam (yeah after my Canon)

TADAAAAAAA!

.: Anne Lucia Wood :.

I LOVE YOU, GADGET FAMILY :D